i hate you!!
why must i like u at d first place?i cant see why i like u soooo much…yea at first i like u becuz of ur looks…and after knowing u for sum days i can see dat u r a bit naive n there’s a lot of gud things in you that is no need to be shared here..i hate u!why did u do this to me?i hate u!i din see dat we’re sharing everything when all i can see is i’m the only one who purposely share everything that is mine with u and i do really like the quote that goes ‘life is sharing’..i hate u!people say that we’ll never confirmed that the person who is in front of us will love us as we do..and only gutsy ppl who wud left sumone who love us but the only bad thing is they’re living far far far away fr our eyes..and that’s true!!i hate u!u say that u love me…but then when sumthin came across and with the pen dat wuz in ur hand(owhh…that was my pen!) u wrote ‘I..H…’ without hesitation..and i guess that must be ‘I HATE U’ and that means u hate me!!m i right?duhhhh u jerk…u kno wut??i think i’m the only one who sumwhat ppl say ‘gile’..’angau’..tekeja2 bende yang mmg takkan dapat!!!i hate u!i did sumthin wrong…i put hi hopes on you…i put hi compliments on you and i frankly say it out loud!!and dat makes u feel proud i guess.(hey i sound like a bitch rite?LET ME!!!this is the only way i can tell how shame i am and how stupid i’ve been for all this while..all flowery~flowery words that u’ve uttered to me…i think dat was all sumwhat we call L.I.E)
u called me…jz now…
u say dat
u need to hear me…sbb u cant c me so dengar suare pon..jaaaadila…i hate u!!i hate myself too…i was not in da mood to talk to you..and was not in a good mood to laugh at ur lame jokes(yeah u go bitch!!)but after hearing ur voice..all those devilish feeling to you~gone with the winds~wut happen??yea u know why…ppl owez say dat ‘bile da suke..yang burok nampak cantek..yang hitam nampak putih…yang senget nampak lurus’ and dat’s me…i like u soooo much until everything i do i’l giv reports to you..everywhere i go i’l tell u where i go…anythin i eat or i cudnt eat for breakfast,lunch n dinner or my stomach grumble i’ll tell u….with whom I hang out i’ll tell u…(BODOH KAN??de tak rugi pon…i’m the one who suffer…bazir kredit je)
u said that..u r really afraid of break ups if dat is ur mistake(for behaving nerd or behaving workaholic in-not-so-mean-word)huh!!!!i dont think so..u kno wut…this devilish idea come rite into my mind on that time without any rush…u r trying to find excuses to make me mad n to make me feel bad n to make me feel dat i’m the one who owez giv problems to our relationship so dat u can break up with me!!cuz i know u have good looks,macho,six pax on da abdomen,intelligent,bright,handsome and all gud words that we cud say to those metrosexual guys….so,in juz one finger snap….ziillliioooonnsssss of cute chix with big boobs,big ass,blablabla will come right away…huh?u oso put all of ur ex-girlssssss on ur featured friends wut…so dat means u can get anyone…anyewhere,,anytime if u want one…erin fr hi school…faezah fr college…n stupid me fr utm…
duhhh…..
i’m not done yet!!!jz now u called n said..’tau tak,B call gune supersaver’ yikess!!!!!!ok one hour to go….on ur marks,get set,go!!!!we talked n laughed n tell stories…NO!!!i tell stories cuz i wanna share everything with u…but u dont,cuz u said u want to keep secrets…last 2 days we had a fight…i sent text mesages to ur roomie n he say that u were sleeping..ok fine..but sumhow u’ve blurt it out that u were’nt really sleeping that time!!!and ‘pannggg!!!!’ i felt like sumone tampar me kuat2 on the face…U N UR ROOMIE LIED TO ME…i hate u!why is that when i ask u…u wont tell a thing?is that u called sumthing that is so secretive?i really need to know..u said that u used to be secretive and everything bout u is a matter of top secret!!duhh….lame excuses..AGAIN,,,n that nite u said u were out..ok fine but with who?goin out…where?doin wut?i need to know…yes i m not ur wife yet..but life is sharing n wut did i get in return for being 100% loyal to you?i feel bad,,now i feel like i wanna cry..sobs..
1. u werent sleeping that evening
2.u were out with sumone..going i-dont-kno-where..doing-i dont-kno-wut that nite
n dat makes me think that u were out with who-ever-girl dat u told me..sape?fara?tah sape2 laa..tak kesah…no!!!kesah sbnanye…n if u argue my devilish idea ni…juzz tel me wut were u doin!!!!izit dat hard?to be true n to be loyal to the one u love?(tu pon if u love me laaaa)tadi..there still got 15 minutes to go for that supersaver..can u pliz xplain to me n be loyal to me..who is the lucky girl who get ur call at this kinda time for about 15 minutes?pening ngan sayng ea….tension ngan sayng ea?carik pompuan laen…u say dat u wont leave me cuz u’re a type of guy who wud never ever break promises..ok we’ll wait n see…(u can never marah me for assuming this n that…why??u kno why…that is becoz..U NEVER TELL!!!!huh….jerk..)pastu lately u suke lagu ke pangkuanmu by shima n wen I say I hate that song u ask me whether I know the lyrics or not n of course I do n so I hate that song!!!if da tanak syg n u nak ur ex blk…go ahead!!!leave me..by the way we’re not married…de da tunang pon so wut??!!!orang da kawen pon bole becerai…(this is harsh I know…but tell me everything so I wont get cnfused!!!its u…U WONT TELL!!huhukkk…*sobs*)
hurm..i’m not done yet…but i think..this is a bit too long..u wont read plak nnt..tambah lagi satu berite sedih…kakak nrul tak jadi datang utm plak..so,mmg sure n confirm i’ll be back home..A.L.O.N.E..(~_~”)
p/s:yeayyy!!!done being a bitch…now i’m back to my ..::lovable mode::..*winks*puas hati~ahhhhh….lega rasenye..thanx bloggie…u r my true friend..mwahhxxx!!!
